Estella Tse 1/6/26 Estella Tse 1/6/26

Favorite Time of Day

I’m digging just the loose red pen doodles. I’m listening to meditations while I do this. I didn’t want to “over commit” with the black pen today - it came out so much more pronounced than I intended. Mostly because I was trying out a new black felt tip pen.

I stuck with a wizardy character - with a cane.

My favorite time of day?
The best days are watching the sunset over the Pacific Ocean. Never gets old.

Estella Tse 1/5/26 Estella Tse 1/5/26

A Magician in the Woods

I know I’m at a point with my creative practice where I need to strengthen my drawing skills again. I’ve been mostly focusing on watercolor in 2025 for fluid and freeing expression. And I want to strengthen my articulation of moments, scenes, storytelling.

Obviously, I have a tremendous amount of skill illustrating a la ArtCenter and professional life.

But who am I and how do I want to articulate marks on a page?
This will be my investigation and inward exploration.

Estella Tse 12/18/25 Estella Tse 12/18/25

What Do You Want to Create?

What do you want to make real with your pen?

What worlds are you creating?

Technique, expertise - everything aside,
WHAT do you want to MAKE?

Estella Tse 12/17/25 Estella Tse 12/17/25

Getting Back Into Drawing

This last year, I focused a lot on expressing myself with watercolors and paints - fluidity of hues and pigment with water. I do feel that I’m at a point where I need to revisit my pen drawing skills again. It’s been many years since I’ve felt “fluent” and ease with drawing. And, like how I did with painting, I want to explore and discover who I am with pen at this stage of my life.

How do you want to create images?
How do you feel authentic with pen?

Estella Tse 12/4/25 Estella Tse 12/4/25

Sagittarius Season

Trust in the ease of fulfillment and desires to come your way.

The first 40 years of your life has been one of learning, undoing, achieving, discovering, becoming.

You’ve arrived in the foundation of your best life.

Everything from here is maintaining + progressively building — the way you were meant to. From a place of calm, intentionality, assured, genuinely and honestly. And with deep rooted values of HOW to do and design life, business, friendships, life partnership, everyday life.

There’s TIME for patience.
There’s ENERGY for slow, intentional decisions.
There’s plenty of opportunities ahead. I know this because I have done this before - many times over…………

Estella Tse 10/30/25 Estella Tse 10/30/25

Transmute

Estella Tse 10/27/25 Estella Tse 10/27/25

Esteeming Oneself

I’ve been having a bout of poor self esteem, and I’m revisiting my Codependency healing work.

One of the main symptoms of codependency is maladaptive self-esteeming.

”Plus One” (+1) or “Minus One” (-1) is what my therapist calls it. My job this week is to observe and focus on the moments when I’m +1 or -1 -ing myself.

Both come from a place of insecurity and ‘malfunction’ (so to say).

-1 is the more common one for me:

Others know more and better than me
Other people’s goals, wants, desires, needs come first before mine
My words and contributions have less weight than others’………

Estella Tse 9/30/25 Estella Tse 9/30/25

The Inner Voices

These aren’t real mushrooms
It’s not accurate
Someone’s going to point out that xyz are wrong
Your colors are off
Your composition is redundant
Position things better
That’s not what moss looks like
That’s not how moss behaves
This isn’t even real
You’re never gonna become xyzblahblahblahblahblah
No one will take you seriously
Your art sux
Your creativity is boring
You’re unoriginal
You’re boring

Estella Tse 9/29/25 Estella Tse 9/29/25

Autumn Begins

This Cali girl is not ready!!
I literally only have tank tops and shorts in my drawers and haven’t done the wardrobe switch yet 😭

Things I’m looking forward to:

Taking the season to be more inward
Cozy time = more time being with myself, my little family, and close friends
Prepping for the joys and celebrations of holiday season

Estella Tse 9/25/25 Estella Tse 9/25/25

Others’ Chaos

Some people are cursed with a lot of internal demons. The chaos fills them - and it’s most of what they’ve known.

My tendency is think I can solve that • that everyone, if given unconditional love, can heal and overcome the demons within them.

My fallacy was thinking that that was my job to solve….

Estella Tse 9/22/25 Estella Tse 9/22/25

Stargazer

I remember spending nights staring out my window, watching the moon cross the sky, and the stars twinkle their way above the Oakland hills. I daydreamed of the world I’ve yet to explore.

It seemed vast.
Giant.
And - scary.

I was afraid of not knowing how I fit in it all. I was afraid of being hurt. I was afraid of the vulnerability of being a PART of it….

Estella Tse 9/19/25 Estella Tse 9/19/25

Nothing Profound Today

Just art for art’s sake.