Estella Tse 4/22/25 Estella Tse 4/22/25

Invisible Experimentation

Similar to VR and AR, invisible ink and glow-in-the-dark illusions play with expectations -> to a moment of delight in its reveal.

Fiddling and playing with paints I got at discount with the Joann’s closures 😅

Estella Tse 4/19/25 Estella Tse 4/19/25

A Moment to Feel

Learning to step away from intensity,
To take moments to sit in my quiet,
To allow myself to just be silent in my mind and being.

Even when it’s good intensity with lots of social time and exertion with friends,
I still need to carve time and space for myself….

Estella Tse 4/17/25 Estella Tse 4/17/25

the simplicity of life

Wake up • Take care of my morning needs • Exercise • Take Bryan out • Make a delicious nutritious bfast for myself • Daily paintings + meditations • Attend to the garden • Work • Check-in with friends • Time with P • Hang with friends over delicious food • Adventure with Bryan • Rest over music, art, trash tv, reflect • Sleep a lot <3 ….

Estella Tse 4/15/25 Estella Tse 4/15/25

Worth Making

I remember thinking, “I’m not good enough.
I’m not creative enough.
I’m not abstract enough.
I’m not original enough.”
and the list could go on.

I would see other artists’ work and wonder….

Estella Tse 4/14/25 Estella Tse 4/14/25

the other side of grief

I am incredibly lucky to have the life that I do.

As I get a bit older, I do believe I am very, very lucky. I feel I have guardians that protect me. I feel that I have a strong compass of what I believe is right and wrong. I am extremely grateful for the deck I’ve been dealt - to have safety in many forms, to have love in SO many forms, to have opportunities, and to have the innate optimism and discipline to make more opportunities for myself, too. I have a lot of supporters, I have a tremendous support system.

I am lucky to be gifted an ability and openness to feel deep connection with nature, humanity, and the things beyond our physical realm.

Perhaps that’s why VR feels natural to me. It’s an extension of how I feel - in my body AND externally out into the world(s) around me….

Estella Tse 4/11/25 Estella Tse 4/11/25

worthy of calm

Do you believe you are worthy of calm?Do you believe you are worthy and deserving of the calm + peaceful life you desire?

I’m learning to shed the need for immense intensity, chaos, unpredictability….

Estella Tse 3/31/25 Estella Tse 3/31/25

Solar Plexus

"Imagine a warm, yellow sun above your abdomen - radiating warmth all around you."

Shed her old, ancient thoughts of self-doubt and judgement.
Proving is a lack of believing.
Start DOING and BEING - simply because you ARE.

Estella Tse 3/28/25 Estella Tse 3/28/25

botanical studies: podophyllum pleianthum

podophyllum pleianthum
chinese mayapple

perennial • zones 6-8

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

Mending

Art therapy sesh piece.

Trying to understand why I’ve been in a trauma / depressive state the last few weeks. It’s been a rough go.

I spoke about this conflict of knowing intellectually that slowing down and doing nourishing things are good for me.

And then it gets to a point where I feel like I’m Good™. I no longer need the crutch of “wellness” practices because….

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

Layers of Being

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

botanical studies: carex oshimensis 'everillo’

carex oshimensis 'everillo'
sedge

perennial • zones 5-9

Estella Tse 3/27/25 Estella Tse 3/27/25

botanical studies: saxifraga x geum 'dentata'

saxifraga x geum 'dentata'

perennial • zones 6-8